...so I didn't do it right...

<insert sigh here>. My Mind Gym 30 days didn't go as planned. Life got in the way. Before I knew it I was working right around 60 hour or more work weeks, and barley had the time to sleep (in order to be in the right mindset the poor little mind must be rested no?). But there is good news. I have found that I don't think about the negative when skating. I have done many transitions to the coping first with few problems. My hitting is getting better, my crossovers are better, I just need to get out of my head with my turn around toe stops coming off the track. The only other news I currently have is that nutrition classes make you want to throw EVERYTHING away....and eat things that literally grow out of the ground and nothing else. Consequently I thought I had done that for 30 days...but just found out that when I added a supplement that helped my derby, I hurt my eating regimine. :/ ya win some ya lose some I guess. The good news is, I'm going to detox my body again...after 3 weeks of eating fast food and frozen meals full of preservatives because it was quick and easy for a sleep deprived person, I'm ready to eat real food again! So here goes nothing. Also, I will start Mind Gym over, I have no class 3 week nights a week, so I will just do my Mind Gym with my regularly scheduled homework!

Ready, Set, GO!

Roo

The last few days...

...have positively sucked. But its still positive thoughts. I've been sick, I am getting better, and the entire time I was telling myself I'd get better, I only felt like a little yuck yuck, I kept my head high. I even kept my composure for the most part when I had to tell the man I love that I would see him soon enough in 9 weeks as I saw him off to the airport on the 3rd. Trying not to cry because your throat is raw sucks monkeys. But its 62 days till he graduates. Barrett Jackson starts Monday for me, so I will be working heavily on my mind set, as it had been working. In fact the last Friday of last year was AMAZING. I had more work than I thought I could do, and it only took me an extra ten min to do what I needed to do. When I got into a jam at work on Thursday because UPS delivered late, I simply didn't worry about it. In as little as 6 days of hard work on my brain I've started to rewire it. Don't get me wrong I still get overwhelmed...who doesn't though? Anyway. 62 61 days because I'm almost going to bed. I'm so excited!

Night, peaceful positive thoughts
Roo

Day 8: the "& I didn't even drink!" Hangover

I missed yesterdays entry as it was momma and gash's birthday bash. It was a bad day. I got more done than I thought I would (positive reinforcement right thurr baby!) But again in the last hour one small thing had me in tears. I've learned that my mind is fragile while under construction. But tomorrow is derby day hopefully all my ickyness will disappear.

1. I can do my skills
2. I can do my skills
3. I CAN do my skills!

Really thinkin sleep is good now.

Roo

Day 6: controlling myself

"You'll never win until you can control that temper of yours." Its true though. I felt success today. I was skating the track and I went to do a turn around toe stop without slowing. I got half way through my transition and because I was doing well my mind over positive itself and I fell. Twas funny. But a step forwardn none the less. My goals for tomorrow:

1. I will keep calm at work, nothing will pull me down
2. I have felt success I will feel it again.

Workout will happen tomorrow.

Good night world
Roo

Day 5: Because day 4 was Christmas

So I didn't Mind Gym enough tonight to get a quote. I'm currently fighting the "Derby Funk"...I'm 99% sure that its just a MASSIVE dehydration I'm fighting. At work today I definitely noticed a major difference. Work went great, but one issue just derailed my afternoon. I've never felt the need for "beerthirty" so bad recently. Anyway. It lead me to my first work goals.

1. No matter how big the order I CAN get it all done in one day
2. I am in control of my emotions, others' emotions are their own, be happy myself first
3. Someone has to be cheering for me, ma as well make it my own positive voice!

I'm thinking I'm gonna finish my water and sleep now. I can't let this dehydration kill me.

Roo

Day 3: Christmas Eve a reflection (posted two days late)

So I actually wrote this one on Christmas Eve, with the intentions of getting on here and posting it, as well as the full intentions of doing my readings on Christmas day...buttttt I got busy :( anyway here goes.

So I was a bad child, I brought my book, notebook, pen and highlighter to work. But its Christmas Eve for craps sake! Anyway I was reading and the quote Arnold Palmer had in his golfing locker sticks to me. It goes:

If you think you're beaten, you are
If you think that you dare not, you don't
If you'd like to win, but think you can't,
It's almost certain you won't.

If you think you'll lose, you've lost,
For out in the world you'll find
Success begins with a fellow's will.
It's all in the state of mind.

Life's battles don't always go
To the stronger or faster man;
But sooner or later the man who wins
Is the man who thinks he can.

How I think effects how I feel and how I will perform. On day three of this positive thinking I noticed I didn't dread getting up to go to work, which for the record puts me normally in a pretty shitty mood. It was surprising to me that the positive thinking at night wakes me with brighter spirits. So even though I'm hand writing this at noon, I won't upload it till just before bed. I'm sure I'll Mind Gym some more..but if three days makes me wake up happier, maybe 7-10 makes me stay happier. I also need to figure out what my positive thinking goals will be for tomorrow. I really need to assess what at work makes me tick, and figure out how to turn it into positive thinking.

Merry Christmas Eve
Roo

Mind Gym day 2: I get knocked down...

In my glorious "Athlete Bible" I highlighted a quote last night, and it was very relevant for me today, "If you don't fail, you're probably not challenging yourself enough." I can honestly say I lost count of how many times I fell on and off that track today. I need to slow my poor mind down. I did two of my three goals decently, and only accomplished my third if I slowed my movements to turtle pace (so still an accomplishment, I will not be getting down on myself, I'm overall happy with how practice went today). so my three goals from yesterday remain still true, however I will be more specific (I'm only rewriting the one I really need to work on)

1. I will properly execute a turn around toe stop on the infield coming off the track. I will be able to think through the steps individually to properly execute it.
2. Falling is NOT failure, frustration WILL happen, and I WILL leave it ALL on the track.
3. I can do all things asked of me on that track
4. I am a phenomenal skater (in the makings) and I will be an asset on any team
5. I will embrace fear with a death grip, and I will make it my friend.

Muhhamed Ali stated once that, "To be a great Champion you must believe you are the best. If you're not, pretend you are." I need to believe in myself and my abilities

On tomorrow's agenda I will run approx 1.6 miles, followed by whatever push ups and sit ups my trainer apps tell me to do. I will be ready physically and mentally for the skills test, and all other tests in the future. Today was a stepping stone, part of the foundation to the great building I am trying to create. I will get to where I want to be. It will just take time to get there. Consider this my work in progress disclaimer.

Good night world,
Roo